Those were yesterday's feelings.

Know what's weird? Day by day, nothing seems to change.
But pretty soon, everything's different. --

I'm done with my enrolment procedures, all that's left for me to do is to wait 2weeks in order to make my Student Card. This is like the 1st step to adulthood, &I'm super :/ for the orientation; dreading it because being sociable to strangers's out of the question. Sometimes I think I'm having trouble with myself =.= Anyway, been addicted to spending money recently, splurging's kinda like my new method to relieving stress. Bought 2 shoes & gonna buy 2 tops & 2 bottoms soon. The best buy is still my bag uh, but I'm like hating myself for spending away 1 month of salary ): Need get a new phone, new laptop, more clothes & so on!

&Actually I've been looking forward to so many things I wantttt to do this Holidays, but it ended up being cancelled or postponed due to many things I haveeee to do. Sighs, &my love life's screwed too. Horoscope said that it'll all handle by itself, I don't see the situation improving any bit. /Zzz & why can't I find Gossip Girl Ep16 online?! I'm like cursing those who put fake videos on Youtube to death. Okay bye.

Stop comparing yourself to others, you're your own person.

Years after years, hurts & more hurts.

I'm exploding, my mind my heart myself.
&I'm trying to cool down, taking slow deep breaths.
But, I don't find any use. Damn it.

Damn everything can? Fcukkk D: I worked so hard, always trying to achieve the best everytime I could. In the end, what did I get? Some stupid punishments and naggings from you, and him. Like everything's my fault. I've been telling myself that you people are just caring for me, yes its true. But tell me, how many other parents care for their child like this? Fine there's a few, a f e w. &Why the hell do I belong to this few instead of those lucky lot out there then? I bet that, ten years down the road we'll still remain the same. Just like this.

This world is so unfair isn't it, those who're perfect are really perfect. Yet those who're so out-casted are really what they call an alien, from other planets. I've been wearing this so called mask whenever I go out, school or not. I'll pretend I'm just an average girl, doing what others were doing. But everytime I return home; I'll tear it off. Bearing this unbearable pain that everyone has to live without, which is good for them. But for me, I really couldn't take it anymore. I'm giving up, fully giving up on this family. I know you'll get someone to read this, but I don't care anymore, I couldn't care anymore. (...) You've never been satisfied before. Never-

p/s} Problems problems and more problems.Everyone hates having problems right? Sorry for the bad entries. &If I don't blog tomorrow means I'll be on Hiatus, Please don't sms, call or whatever; as I won't reply. Thanks bye-

Now that I know,

I was just being your past time.

Dreams or reality?

Pssttt. Mosquitoes sucks(!)

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[Edit] Woke up @8plus this morning thanks to a phone call (private), then my phone is right beside my bed & I stupidly picked up the remote (next to the phone) and answered with my remote -.- You know, like pressing the red button saying "Hello?" to the remote! That's the most stupid thing I've ever done can, I mean, for ages -.- [/Editted]

Got a few interesting chainmails from a few friends. Decided to post up some pictures extracted from it. (Sometimes not all chainmails are junk mails, those that are meaningful are really worth reading. Though I don't forward them [:') Okays here they are:

You may have thought that it's imitating the guy right?


Have a closer look, is it different now?


Yet still, she has the willpower to move on (with 2legs).

I was close to tearing halfway reading through the mail uh :/ (Still got a few other pics') They didn't mention her particulars, but this mongrel despite having only 2legs is strong enough to stand up like humans and move on with her life, so why can't we? Provided we lose nothing. Think about it, are you fortunate enough compared to the other half of this world? There's always worst people around us. Bring the smiles around (:

Oh nooooo D: Nuffnang had confiscated my old status of 'Glitterati' (!) I want that status back :/ Awws now I'm suffering with the status of 'Ordinary (non-exclusive)' How sad): Please let me have my Glitterati back D:

There's School tomorrow! :D No matter what I'm going I'm going I'm going. (p/s} If I didn't go tomorrow means I uh, anyone can have the chance to beat me up, as a punching bag.) Lol, I'm saying this because I'm afraid in the end I won't go :/ So yeahs xD Hehs that's about it remember to click on my Google Ads for personal uses thanks bye loves♥

I guess, once you decided to come back,

I'll be long gone by then. Still, all the best to everything.

&For you know, there's something behind this.