Years after years, hurts & more hurts.

I'm exploding, my mind my heart myself.
&I'm trying to cool down, taking slow deep breaths.
But, I don't find any use. Damn it.

Damn everything can? Fcukkk D: I worked so hard, always trying to achieve the best everytime I could. In the end, what did I get? Some stupid punishments and naggings from you, and him. Like everything's my fault. I've been telling myself that you people are just caring for me, yes its true. But tell me, how many other parents care for their child like this? Fine there's a few, a f e w. &Why the hell do I belong to this few instead of those lucky lot out there then? I bet that, ten years down the road we'll still remain the same. Just like this.

This world is so unfair isn't it, those who're perfect are really perfect. Yet those who're so out-casted are really what they call an alien, from other planets. I've been wearing this so called mask whenever I go out, school or not. I'll pretend I'm just an average girl, doing what others were doing. But everytime I return home; I'll tear it off. Bearing this unbearable pain that everyone has to live without, which is good for them. But for me, I really couldn't take it anymore. I'm giving up, fully giving up on this family. I know you'll get someone to read this, but I don't care anymore, I couldn't care anymore. (...) You've never been satisfied before. Never-

p/s} Problems problems and more problems.Everyone hates having problems right? Sorry for the bad entries. &If I don't blog tomorrow means I'll be on Hiatus, Please don't sms, call or whatever; as I won't reply. Thanks bye-

Now that I know,

I was just being your past time.

Dreams or reality?

Pssttt. Mosquitoes sucks(!)

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[Edit] Woke up @8plus this morning thanks to a phone call (private), then my phone is right beside my bed & I stupidly picked up the remote (next to the phone) and answered with my remote -.- You know, like pressing the red button saying "Hello?" to the remote! That's the most stupid thing I've ever done can, I mean, for ages -.- [/Editted]

Got a few interesting chainmails from a few friends. Decided to post up some pictures extracted from it. (Sometimes not all chainmails are junk mails, those that are meaningful are really worth reading. Though I don't forward them [:') Okays here they are:

You may have thought that it's imitating the guy right?


Have a closer look, is it different now?


Yet still, she has the willpower to move on (with 2legs).

I was close to tearing halfway reading through the mail uh :/ (Still got a few other pics') They didn't mention her particulars, but this mongrel despite having only 2legs is strong enough to stand up like humans and move on with her life, so why can't we? Provided we lose nothing. Think about it, are you fortunate enough compared to the other half of this world? There's always worst people around us. Bring the smiles around (:

Oh nooooo D: Nuffnang had confiscated my old status of 'Glitterati' (!) I want that status back :/ Awws now I'm suffering with the status of 'Ordinary (non-exclusive)' How sad): Please let me have my Glitterati back D:

There's School tomorrow! :D No matter what I'm going I'm going I'm going. (p/s} If I didn't go tomorrow means I uh, anyone can have the chance to beat me up, as a punching bag.) Lol, I'm saying this because I'm afraid in the end I won't go :/ So yeahs xD Hehs that's about it remember to click on my Google Ads for personal uses thanks bye loves♥

I guess, once you decided to come back,

I'll be long gone by then. Still, all the best to everything.

&For you know, there's something behind this.

Deep cuts, drop by drop.

Hellos Earthlings [:
Since I'm free now, shall do the quiz Rachel Strawberry Shortcake tagged me to do :D
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Answer the following questions:

1. The person who last tag you is,
# Howard Banana :D

2. Your relationship with him/her is,
# Crazy friends? -.-

3. Your first 5 impressions of him/her,
# Oh no I don't know this. Okays fine, I had thought he was a Bad & Unfriendly person, but over the years he became such a Good Friend, Crazy ass and a Banana-Lover. Oops :X

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you,
# He stayed up the whole night just to cheer me up even tho' his camp is just a few hours away.

5. The most memorable words he/she had said to you,
# I-don't-want-to-say. Lol.

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will,
# Ohno, I'll surely turn "Gay". Rofl.

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be,
# That's impossible anyway, hahs I love him as a friend [:

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will,
# *Shakes head* I'll cry D:D:D:

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be,
# Will be he has officially turned into a devil Dx

10. The most desire thing you want to do to him/her now is,
# Nothing :O

11. Your overall impression of him/her is,
# Great friend whose always there. (:

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
# Depends on who, I'm a totally different person in/out of School.

13. The character you love of yourself are,
# Cheerful, (Wait am I?) Neh'mind I love to laughs :D

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are,
# Super duper lazy girl. :/

15. The most ideal person you want to be is,
# Everything perfect, which is just a dream. [:

16. For people that care & like you, say something to them,
# Million thanks to you people, love you guys♥

17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons,
# Anyone will do, there's still some Questions after this, visit Rachel's blog [:

.p/s} I'm lazy to do the rest of the Quiz. &I'll blog again tonight.

It's amazing how life goes.

Mummy, I want to sleep :/
&Yayness! My school has officially declared a school holiday just for us :D Yipees no school for tomorrow, but will be staying home to enjoy though, can't go out. Whatevers, better than having to go school and scratching all around again. Happy holiday to us. [: &There's our School Musical today, I'm not going as I don't want to waste my precious $12 on watching people dancing around like some fairies. Hmms :O

Horoscope reading: You may be surprised by the sudden appearance of a long-lost friend. He/she has been trying to come back to you for the past few weeks. However you may realise how much you two have changed over the months. Be prepared to face certain challenges.

How true can it be? Everything's happening once again.`
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Ohs & I have something to rant on today :/ (Yes today's been a great day, at school and all. However! Some idiots really pissed me off okay, but luckily not totally spoilt yet.)

No.1 Idiot (Paedophile!) On the way home, right below my block. I was walking behind an old man, &he suddenly turned around and saw me. &The next thing is I find him kept staring at me weirdly so I began to pace faster, and when I look back I found him following me with the pervertic stare! Mouthing "Ohmygosh wthwth." I ran up the stairs instead of taking the lift to my usual 6th Storey apartment. He did look up the stairs but I was long gone. Phew.

No.2 Idiot (Irritator(s)!) Alrights I really hate this. I've already said I'm definitely not a custom blogskinner(!) (Unless you're lucky enough to be my close friend or something, if not I'll never do customs.) -Besides I've totally lost my old skills due to laziness. And then there's this idiot who added me on msn, kept asking for helps in blogskins. Yesyes I can help with some codes but please you're just a beginner, I repeat; Beginner! He kept demanding for those blogskins like Benjamin(typicalben)/ Isaac/ Jeramy etc. I mean like, I've already viewed his blog & he's like those Update-per-month blogger. Damnit still want poser those pros. Worst still! I told him I'm not pro till that extreme but he still kept on demanding. Who do you think you are? Anyway you're honourably blocked and deleted. [: Ohs why does all these people even exist -.-

*Breathes in, breathes out*

Shan't let all these peoples affect my mood. I'm in a good mood today. Cannot let them spoil it. Relax .. Phews okays I'm done. That's all for today :D

Don't dump me into this confusion,

I needa know the truth.