It's a matter of time.

Chop chop get the work done :D
[Editted] There's something that I really want to splurt out, which is I really love my friends, everyone of you [: Esp. (You know who) Thanks alot, if not I don't think I'll even get a chance to talk to Mr. 'Inserts name'. Alrights thanks love you guys :D p/s} Yes yes I'm secretive lol. [/Editted]

I love the man up there :D Sexy(!)

Okays I didn't attend school today you see. &For the first time I want to go school so badly, cause I've planned earlier how to spend my day wisely today :/ But something stupid corked up and I'm really furious on myself D: My allergies are back and now I have rashes everywhere; my back my arms my neck & even my toes ): Having a fever right now. (If it worsen then I'll have to be admitted into the hospital already, hopefully not.) p/s} Effects from Curry (-.-)

Can you imagine, my whole back's like that now -.-

Sorry for the gross image up there. Lol, I don't know why I just love taking pictures nowadays and posting them up here. Enjoy it. Ohwells I'm like scratching everywhere upside down now, grr it's worst than having chickenpox can! (Ohwait, I haven't even experienced chickypox yet :/, don't tell me its worst than the situation down here, oh no I don't wanna think about it -.-')

(!!!) *Insert thousands of exclaimation marks here* I'm really missing school now, when I'm not actually skipping it :O Whywhywhy is it so? ): Amazing. &For the first time my mom's scolding me for not attending school; when I'm actually really uh, ill? Sweat I feel damn weird alright, everyone's like treating me so super differently(!) Lol.

Ohoh, &my whole body's aching all because of the Standing Broad Jump I did on Friday, jumped for like more than 30over times. But I have to thank Mr. Lee for letting us jump, as the aches keep the itch away too, that's quite a good thing :D If not I think I'll scratch till everywhere bleeds. (Just like last night, really bleeded -.-')
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I guess I better stop blogging about this stupid rash. If not you readers will freak out soon. Roflmao, I'll be off to bloghopping/studying/playing/scratching/whatever now. *Remember to click on my Google Ads, Nuffnang too (If there's any) Thanks bye. [:

I'll be handled under childcare management (...)

I just wish I could live in denial.

Tell me something I don't know.

My laptop's like not happy with me today, lagness all the way D:
Finally I can blog, but still lagging okay! Lol. Okays first meet up with Sharifahhh @Vivo today, Jiaming tagged along too [: We were like standing next to each other and I was wondering whether it's her or not, after a long time approached & asked and yeah it was really her -.- Camwhored all the way for today :D

Footprints! That's randomism. [:


Uh, I can't see myself ._.


Both of us had a hard time going up there.

Yups we walked a few rounds around the pool area and then dragged the turtle with us, :D Skips skips and slacked for awhile. While slacking that toot go smack my leg until whole leg turned pink(!) He damn violent uh I always smack him soft soft then he smack me so hard -.- Heartless one :/

He don't want to let go of the pole! :/

There's also this little boy down here playing water with himself, we're afraid of him cause he's like, splashing water all around. &Here is he :D

Managed to snap a clear shot of him :D

After slacking we went down to Banquet for drinks and food, I love the Iced Milk Tea over there :D Didn't ate anything, and after that went to Toy'R'us to camwhore once again [x

Ohh yay Sesame Street♥

The only picture I took with that turtle head(!) Lol.

Didn't have much to say today, afterall; a picture speaks a thousand words right? I guess I won't be updating already cause it's like. I blog to earn yet I'm not earning anything :/ Only 2clicks for Google Adsense today D:D: Hahs, okays goodnight.

So much to tell.

Take the music that never plays-
Oh alrights, today. Met the 2 kids @Hub, trained down to Bugis & went to Topman to find their Hoodies, and then they said too Ex- &Next lunched at Yoshinoya; didn't ate anything. Bugis street-ed and still can't find their hoodies, and then strolled to Bra's Puasa as Jo wanted to shop for his stuff @Popular.

That was Jo advertising for Dora the Explorer.


One of the random shots.

&After that, we had a long walk down to Suntec City.

On the way there, one of the shop's name.

Ohs and my dear daddy went to buy his Rubik's Cubie @Toy'r'us, had drinks at Coffee Bean and etc, the babies all damn cute plus funny can :D I'm like crazy over little children; not the paedophile type hor! Hah :D &Then we decided to go to Suntec Convention Centre for ..

Toy & Comic Convention 2008.

Ohwells, it was damn crowded inside. Our asses are like, bang here bang there lol! &Didn't get to see much but honestly uh, I have a phobia on those human-dressed-up as monsters. I'm like afraid of them I don't know why. :/ Ohs, and I had a hard time finding for a suitable queueless toilet. Because my bladder was going to burst at that point of time. After the relieve went to KFC for drinks and snacks.

Daddy looks so "blurred" here, rofl. (Don't scold me :O)

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I'm finally done with blogging(!) Spent like 1whole hour on this chunk of crap lol. Oh & you know, my blog's like dead already. I mean I'm always updating but then I feel that nobody's reading it cause the tagboard's like dead too. &I'm like not earning from Google Ads already because only a few's been clicking it :/ Help D: Alrights I'm off [:

Regrets unrevealing.

Last night "Supper"

Physical Education: Those who failed any items of their Napfa Test were asked to get some practice till they can pass. (Yeah I'm one of them, failed my Standing Broad Jump -.-') &Then the others get to play Powerball/Soccer. I want to run 2.4m uh, so long never run already :/ Hah. Then for the entire 2periods me, Thomas &Shiyun's been jumping till our legs went jelly. I don't know how to jump uh! The max I could go is 130cm D:

Changed up for High Achiever's Tea, right after P.E(!) Still need wear tie all these imagine how we've been suffering :/ They showed some videos and had some talks and then prize presentation etc. &Food(!) and then back home-
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Somehow, I feel that its my fault for everything that had happened. I mean like, things will be better without my existance, I feel such a jinx. She said she gonna put me into an orphanage, &started thrashing things around, She said she's tired, but I'm also very tired as well. I wanted everything to end off, peace out, a pause of whatever. Because I can't take it anymore, seriously. & like what's with the breaking down and crying and all? I find no point in doing all these, but still I couldn't control the tears from flowing. I hate this family, really. &I don't know what to do (...) Damnit.Everything's upside down now, everything ...

Shattered.

Never have yesterday(s).

I have the urge to go Esplanade @night again. :/ The night view's so beautiful, (Without all the IR constructions going on of course.`) The breeze so cooling and the skylines are definitely my favourite♥ Ohplease whoever's curfew that is late please go with me):

I'm missing every part of it alrights(!)

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&I totally loves today (really really much!)♥ I don't know why either, I'm just happy to go school without any troubles and back home feeling as fresh as ever. Everything had went just right, perfectly right, the pace and all. :D

I had this nightmare last night, woke up @3am plus with cold sweat. The nightmare was some random serial killer dreams, I was hiding at the corner or something like that. &Then the next thing I know was waking up to realise its just a dream. Hah. Overslept because of that, waking at 6.15am instead of the usual 5.40am. But I wasn't late because the bus came late today too. :O

In School, went to the office to hand the staffs the Lawyer's Report for my "Addition of English name", so now my name's officially Blanche.Z TYL. (Not revealing) But I prefer my schoolmates to call me by my old name as I wasn't use to it yet [: Alrights, then the first 2periods was relief period (yay!), followed by the rest of some funfunfun lessons :D Didn't enjoy school so much before, or maybe since very long time ago. Haha was asked to stay back alone as Miss Tang wanted to explain to me more on the Binomial Theorem tests etc, as I was absent yesterday. Back home with a smile, infact I has been smiling for the whole day already :D:D Ohoh, one more thing! High achiever's tea tomorrow(!)

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p/s} To whoever's reading this: You're the besttt xD I'm crazyaye! Lol, okay okay remember to help me click on the Google/Nuffnang Ads alright? Google's one is always available and useful for people out there [: Loves♥

You've changed my life so patiently.

}thankyou.

Plan without action is just a wish.

Current Song: Yesterday - Leona Lewis.
Current Mood: Restless.

Oh yes, very restless -_-

Got some surveys from friendster:

1) Any craving?
# Happily transfer to another Cca.

2) Do you love your name?
# Yes my new name, but not Tyl.

3) Have ever thought that you are useless ?
# Yups definitely. :/

4) Waiting for?
# Miracle to happen, for something .. or someone :/

5) Want to get rid off?
# Manymany troubles, of course.

6) Guys, what do you think of them?
# Weird creatures on Earth.

7) What makes you think back to your childhood times?
# Old friends/things/etc.

8) In love right now?
# Sort of. More of a crush.`

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& I actually wanted to say something, thats why I signed in to blogger. But my mind suddenly went blank just as I start to type the first letter. Dang :/ Yesyes I'm going to school tomorrow. There'll be so many lessons for me to catch up. Missed A.Maths Binomial Theorem test and Chemistry Pop Quiz today. &I'll be so dead tomorrow.

I'm missing something, or someone :/

Bring me home, waiting-

(100th post♥)

It's 2am when I'm typing this, there's school tomorrow; but I don't think I'll be going. Suffering from gastric right now, &mom made me eat those freshly baked potatos she just baked, at this time :/ *I promise I'll study Binomial Theorem and Chemistry Equations tomorrow again, as well as history. Not gonna' skip school just to rest [:

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You know, sometimes part of me actually likes this Cca, yet another part of me doesn't. I don't know why, its just how I feel. When Mdm personally came to me on Monday just to ask me why I didn't went for cm/camps, I did told her the truth; but felt guilty not to tell her that I don't want to go too, maybe I was too afraid. She said she better see me attending it from that day, yet I didn't. &Then Sir talked to me on msn a few hours ago, I was shocked he didn't scold me or anything :/ Howhow, I'm feeling damn guilty for something I can't control):

It's weird though, I'm taking in the soft part and ignoring the hard part-

(If only you know what I mean, but you don't.)

[10mins later]

Alright, I've finally cleared my thoughts. I'm not staying.

♥♥♥

I'm tired, but I can't sleep (...)

p/s} Added a Custom Google Search under "Fun Clicks", feel free to try out anytime :D &I really want weekends to come soon. :/ Still in holiday mood.

Okay fine, I think I like you. :/

Frivolity mind.

Awesome, today's some Ambulance Day & I didn't attend it.

I can say that home's the best place to study (for me), better than school. :D Completed four assignments without difficulty [: Studied for Chemistry Equations and understood 80% of it :D I'm overjoy! Hmms but my gastric is coming back again, neh'mind good that I didn't attend school, if not I doubt I can even concentrate. :/ Lol.

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One day a father and his rich family took his son to a trip to the country with the firm purpose to show him how poor people can be.

They spent a day and a night in the farm of a very poor family. When they got back from their trip the father asked his son, "How was the trip?"

"Very good Dad!"

"Did you see how poor people can be?" the father asked.
"Yeah!"
"And what did you learn?"

The son answered, "I saw that we have a dog at home, and they have four. We have a pool that reaches to the middle of the garden, they have a creek that has no end. We have imported lamps in the garden, they have the stars. Our patio reaches to the front yard, they have a whole horizon." When the little boy was finishing, his father was speechless.

His son added, "Thanks Dad for showing me how poor we are!"

And then the father fainted.-

Something to share:

Feel free to click :D

*My statistics dropped by 50% ever since school reopen):

Doomsday conspiracy.

School wasn't that bad afterall. :D
(&Even though I did managed to survive today, I'll definitely be doomed tomorrow.)

Grooming check in the morning; new a/e'maths teacher, she's quite cute uh lol. & Also will be getting new English teacher): Won't be able to slack much this semester, even the school rules are stricter :/ Gonna' study hard(er) :D Blahs did target settings etc, &back home. Will be getting loads of homeworks starting from tomorrow.

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Now that everyone have lesser chance getting online -> lesser visitors, lesser tags, lesser I-don't-know-what. &I'm going berserk lol. ;X I'll try to find something nice to update about next time. Grr. D: Probably changing blogskin again. After this post.-

(Seriously uh, how can someone enjoy something he/she really dislike for such a long time? I've read an article on the newspaper saying schools shouldn't really force students into something they don't like, infact let them get involved into what they think they really can be commited to, or useful to them in the future. That'll strongly decrease the numbers of poners for that particular activity please :/) Etcetc.

The feeling is back.

Bang the wall; hit the jackpot.

I've been yawning ever since I struggled to wake up at 12pm -.- Because normally I'll sleep an extra hour or more, *yawns* (I guess that's the 32nd') But I know I still won't be able to sleep tonight, only after 2am unless I get myself some sleeping pills from mom; but she's currently not in Singapore dang :/

Okay as you see, today's the last day of Holiday! D:
Which means every kiddos have to turn in early today (which I'll fail to do so) waking up early in the morning and return back to their school tomorrow.

Then we'll finally see this pile of crap once again.

& I still haven't done the following (have you?) :

Remove Polish & Cut Nails

Pack School Bag/Iron School Uniform

Physically/Mentally Prepared(!)

Oh, and I don't know how to go to school :/ I mean, I don't know how to go to school with this hair -.- I mean, *coughs* nevermind :D What bus do I normally take to school uh? 268 or 269 (?) Shiat. &I'll be so sleepy, so sleepy that I could be yawning every milliseconds all the time tomorrow.

I bet at least 1/4 of the school will be like this tmr.

Maybe I won't even attend school tomorrow. Yeah, :/ There'll also be Ccas, swt. You people know why I hadn't been really attending Ccas since May? Not just because of the made-up reasons which happened to be coincidentally true; but also because I want to prove to them that they can't force me into something I don't like. Going there just to see them fooling around doing the same old thing everytime? No. So I doubt I'll be attending Ccas from tmr anyway. :D

p/s} Heys readers! Whoever out there, do me a favour by kindly clicking on the Nuffnang Advertisments if there's any. I gurantee they're very interesting & may be useful to you [: Ohs, and I may not be updating often starting from tomorrow onwards. ): Toodles!

Autumn leaves, what we missed.

Changed layout; I'm still not used to the bigbig headers &the colours. Lmaoxz. :D Ohwells, feel like playing with the codings again, cause I want to add images :/ But! Guess what's the bad news? It is today's the last 2nd day of holiday! Dx *Yawns with the sulky face*

I still haven't hybernate enough please. If I have a dream come true; I'd be greedy to wish for all my dreams to come true. &That includes time to slow down/MOE to extend holidays/something like that. [: But that's one of the most impossible of the impossible things to wish for, unless there's a breakout in Singapore just like the Sars Period. Which I don't think will occur so suddenly.

Alrights let's don't get any further than that♥
Today, unlike other normal days, Eshley talked to me. (Miracle!) Asked me some cold jokes which I don't think is cold at all. Ahwell this is one of my fav's.

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There was this friendly Char Siew Pao, he went to the movie theatre with a Man Tou, in the end the Char Siew Pao came out of the theatre crying. Why didn't the Man Tou cry too?

Ans: Because the Man Tou have no feeling (filling).

The next day, the same Char Siew Pao went to the movie with Tar Sau Pao, this time Char Siew Pao came out crying & Tau Sar Pao came out laughing. Why?

Ans: Because they have different feelings. (fillings).

On the 3rd day, the same Char Siew Pao went to the movie with the Chicken Pao, the Chicken Pao came out crying and the Char Siew Pao didn't. Why?

Ans: He got bored after watching it the 3rd time. :D

There's always a story behind.

Someone tagged me to do this quiz, but I forgot who' :/
p/s} Short term memory.

Favourites:
Favourite Color: Black, Red, Silver and Gold.
Favourite Food: Sweet stuffs, esp Chocolate!
Favourite Movie: No favourites.
Favourite Sport: Basketball.
Favourite Day of the Week: Saturday(s).
Favourite Season: Spring and Winter.
Favourite Ice-cream: Chocolate Chips.

Currents:
Current Mood: 99% B-o-r-e-d.
Current Clothes: Black T-Shirt & Short.
Current Computer Wallpaper: Black Clouds.
Current Time: 5.51pm.
Current Surroundings: Baby pink bedroom.
Current Annoyances: Neighbour's dog barking.
Current Thoughts: Some weird thoughts.

Firsts:
First Best Friend: Michelle (Etcetc)
First Crush: Mx.
First Movie: Some cartoon dinosaurs.
First Lie: That I want to pee(?) I think :/
First Music: Must be some baby lullaby.

Lasts:
Last Drink: Green tea.
Last Car Ride: Few days ago.
Last Crush: Current crush [:
Last Phone Call: Grandmama' -.-
Last CD Played: It's been a long time.

Have you evers?
Have you ever dated one of your best friend: Yups :D
Have you ever broken the law: Yeah :/
Have you ever been arrested?: Yeah (...) -.-
Have you ever been on TV: Yes -.-
Have you ever kissed someone you dont know: Yups!

Random 5 things you are good at:
Blogging.
Sleeping.
Eating.
Maths(?)
Excuses.

Fall for you tonight.

Shiat my mind went suddenly blank :O I forgot what to blog about.
*Thinks harder* Oh yeah I was just about to blog about today! Hmms but what did I do today?*Thinks deeper till brain burst halfway* Okayokay got it (:
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Met up with the Chicken Pie-y Jo @Amk Mrt Station, blah` &then yay we were the earliest there; (actually Darren was the earlier, but meh he's not counted as he was too early!) Hmm, &then did some auntie-shopping @Carrefour for the snacks to bring in to the movie theatre.

I lost the bet uh, I actually thought the Carrefour was Cold Storage (both start with C what how I know -.-') &Lost $2 to Jo for his movie ticket. Crap, okay went to Cineleisure wanted to watch "Never Back Down" but then the seats were !#$%&* D: So changed the movie to "The Happening" at 4pm. Paid $(6+2) (The $2 I lost to Jo') just to see people dying, so hmm I suggest you all don't go waste your money to watch it. If curious then just watch it online [:

After that walked around Orchard as some lost childrens not knowing where to go. So don't-know-who suggested to go ToyR'us at Paragon to play free toys. &Then someone keep bullying me swt. Dinnered @Taka's Macdonald, I didn't want to eat but that someone who happened to be my daddy also right, forced me to eat. So no choice uh have to be a good daughter :/ *Ahem!*

Random snapping♥

Wandered around as some lost childrens again.` Only remembered that I have to blog about today tonight, so started to take out my phone to snap here snap there. [:

Went to this place for Sushis+(Early Supper)?

p/s} I didn't take enough pictures to blog today :/ &I promise I'll do all the surveys you people tagged me some other days; when I really have nothing to blog about. Lols, &&I love you! I mean you; whoever whose reading this message right now :D Thanks for visiting, goodbye♥

Leave me alone, kthxbye-

A fullstop locks you into a sentence, while the three dots provides you the escape route. I need the escape route, right now (...)

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Everything's so messed up, just like a dead knot.

&I've lost my patience to untie it, I'm tired of doing so already. Just like how I'm tired of staying the same way all the time, trying to be cheerful just to cover up all the tears behind.- Sometimes I just feel like dozing myself off with the sleeping pills right behind that wardrobe. How peaceful it is just to sleep forever and never to wake up again? Afterall, a life will end whenever a new life begins.

When a flower turns yellow, it can still be saved by adding fertillizer and taking time to nurture it back to life. But when it's dead, no matter how hard you try to save it it'll still be dead. Nothing can bring it back to life when it's too late.

I don't know what's up with me, I can't seems to figure it out.

Like so many past events, so many of them, flashing through my mind.

I need a break, really.

&Something to add: I hope you could just shut up.

The heart's on another side.

I don't have the mood to blog, *yawns*
My eyes are already half closing, I'll go back to sleep after blogging.
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Alrights, where to start? Hmm yesterday morning checked into Malaysia shopped around, waited & waited at mom's friend office for him to return, &then he called saying he'll only come back tomorrow (which is today) and then checked in back to Singapore in the evening.

Dinnered at Le Meridien's Cafe Georges'

The food there totally sucks to the core; except the soups. I swear I'm never going back there again. Wasted $80++ D: &then the waiter sounds like a duck, etc etc.

Strolled to Plaza Sing',

Mom doesn't encourage the "Save the Environment, bring your own bag day". There's this conversation between her & the cashier @Cold Storage, he said he can't give her extra plastic because Gov. say what Save the Earth by bringing your own Bag etc. Then mummy said Gov also make us waste the plastic notes to buy more plastic bags for rubbish bins; isn't it worst? &then funniest part is she told me she felt like kicking his ass to London. Lmao -

Byed to her, went to buy some tidbits at some Japanese Department Store.

Oooh lovely candies :D

Met up with Howard to go to his place for a swim, &there's a very cute baby boy peeing in the pool (luckily I was out of the pool already') I smiled at him and then he smiled & waved back at me! So cute [: After that, got lost for around 10mins at the pool area, -.- That bastard kidnapped me till his mom returns to send me home-

Woke up at around 12.45pm today, &now I'm gonna go back to sleep :D
Goodnight! Oops, I mean Good afternoon :O

p/s} Currently not in Singapore :D

Smiley faces.

*Gives the big retarded grin once again*` xD

I checked out of Singapore & then checked in back this evening. (That's really a very long story to explain :/) Will be out of Singapore tomorrow till Friday morning. &I'll blog tomorrow too, as I'm now being kidnapped at some idiot house -.-

Boos* to myself, my blog's really getting boring yeah. Basically because my sitemeters is decreasing tremediously, from 160max last month to only 80-100views this month D: It's very very sad, lol. -

[Edit] I'm missing home now, /homesick. It's very quiet here, very dark very creepy very .. I don't know how to say, it just brings your mood down whenever possible. I miss my noisy home @Amk town please. I want to go home now! D: [/Editted]

I still miss you, somehow.

Life is better than ever.

Hello humans/aliens/whoever♥
Tell you a big secret, I'm in a super duper good mood today :D *Gives the big retarded grin* Okay it's true lahr, first time in history I've ever been smiling all day long. [:

I still love the blue cloudy sky- (Random)

So the daughter (me) and her mom trained down to Tiong Bahru Plaza to meet one of her friend who works there, shopped around first &skipskip. Thinking that she had left the plaza, called my friend up to ask him to come over; but when he reached she suddenly appeared :O (Will get some suspicious questionings from her later on-) Alrights, there's something funny that I want to tell you readers;

He effingly bought 2large Ice lemon tea and 2large popcorns plus some nachos. (Just for the 2of us,) &can't believe his appetite uh cause judging that he's so skinny and all. -.- But didn't managed to finish the popcorns.

Watched the Kung Fu Panda.

I'm rating it 4.5stars. &I've totally fallen in love with the Panda, heh xD I was absolutely mad inside the theatre uh, started laughing @first 1/4 of he movie and still laughing at the same issue at the last 3/4 of the movie :/ Hilarious! :D &The movie ended at around 7.15pm, went to Orchard. Walked out the station and found it drizzling so decided to go home instead.

I'll be pinning up my fringe till it grows perfectly long.

Because, the non-short non-long fringe is damn irritating and fugly D: Not being paranoid, okay maybe a little because I'm not used to it :/ Heh, so will be pinning it up whenever I go out-

Quoted from the movie: Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, and today is a gift; that's why they call it the present.

All the little contradictions-

Turned in at 1am plus last night, slept for 20mins or so then woke up. Roll here & there till 5am plus then really fell asleep. I didn't know I got that much to think about, &the weather's like either very hot/cold every night. Woke up at 8am- Bathed & trained down to City Hall, that poser turtle same train as me again -.- Waited for more than 20mins for someone to switch on his phone, gave up & breakfast-ed @Mos Burger, coped 2 lil' fries.

&Received something like a prank call, (only it isn't), that totally affected my mood today. Ohwell not really affected, but you know I'm like that. (Always like this') Fine shall be normal & treat it as nothing had happened.
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Welcome to Escape Theme Park♥

Firstly, we went into the Haunted House. &I was continuously repeating "I'm not scared, I won't scream." to myself, how retarded :/ Still in the end, screamed the most. (Squeezed Amelia's arm till uh (...) :/) Lmao, know what? The ghost stepped onto my slipper; &he won't return! Then he was crawling & pretending to sniff it. D: I didn't care any further & just exitted the house, and then that turtle threw my slipper out. Swt, &hor the 2other boys were frightened too :D

Next, th'Daytona Go-Kart Rides.

Followed by a lot of other rides, played all of 'em actually. (Excluding the Under Maintenance's one) I'm not really afraid of other scary rides; but gained phobia on the Pirate Ship. As I didn't ate much for the past few days & can't breathe properly. &Then after sit that thing will like feel like puking. But no effects for me for the 360degree ride, (maybe I was busy holding my necklace from dropping down? -.-')

The ferry wheel so small, not fun! Lol.

They had their lunch @Burger King, I was hungry too but my appetite fails to let me absorb any food. It was really weird uh :/ Got so thirsty after awhile. Skips. We found the Go-Kart super fun, hence we tried it a dozen times [:

Left the place at around 5plus, as Hippo had something on.

Say byebye to Downtown East♥

[p/s} Some pictures may be a lil' pixelated, screwed it up while editting-]
&Sometimes I'd just stay positive and say;

"Don't worry, the sun will shine after the rain."

I'm having serious gastric after only snacking for the past few days. Had 2slices of sandwich for dinner just now, had difficulty digesting it. My appetite still isn't there; perhaps I need to pay a visit to the doc's again.

I realised that I've never love you before.

Escape route.

Just as an usual day, but there's a story I want to share (:
But firstly, let us wish a;

Happy Father's Day to All Daddy(s) :D

Blanche'ese♥

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Unwritten Pages♥

One evening a young woman was walking alone barefoot by the ocean after the sun had set. She stopped in her path and turned so she could see the footsteps she had left in the sand. But they had already been washed away by the waves. When she turned to continue her walk, she was startled by the sudden presence of an old woman wrapped in a blanket sitting by a fire, slowly flipping through the leaves of a leather-covered book.

The old woman said, "Sit with me, child. I have something to show you."

As the young woman sat down beside the fire, the mysterious stranger handed her the book. She curiously turned the pages one by one and was amazed to discover they contained the story of her whole life from the early days of childhood to the present. She then came to the page telling of her encounter with the old woman on the beach, but upon turning to the next page, she found it empty. She frantically began to turn the rest of the pages in the book only to find that they, too, were all empty. In bewilderment, she looked to the old woman and pleaded with her to explain.

"Does this mean my life ends this night?"
"No, my child," answered the old woman. "It means tonight your life begins."

At that moment the old woman took the book into her own hands and began to tear out each of the pages with words, throwing them one by one into the fire until all that was left were blank pages.

"You see," she said, "just as the waves washed away your footsteps in the sand, your past is forever gone, never to return. The only moment you ever truly possess is here and now. Each new moment is the beginning of the rest of your life and is to be lived to the fullest, for you will not have a chance to live that moment a second time. Most important of all, each new day brings an opportunity to love - one that may never come to you again.

As for your future, you are free to shape it as you wish, for it has not yet been written." Then, as mysteriously as she had appeared, the old woman stood to walk away and disappeared into the darkness of the night.

- Willian Oak.
Credits to Mf.commontown.net♥

They're right, I have to look ahead.

Leave the lover, hug the stranger.

Just to think about it, I suppose I'm the cause of the problem.
Or maybe loads of problems (...)
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Escape outing postponed to Monday.
Hopefully there won't be any problems till then :/

I guess I better stay as silent as possible-

It's a miracle, I didn't ate anything since the day before. Only drinks, & I don't feel hungry at all. Maybe a little, but its a surprise that my gastric hasn't come yet, neither my appetite is working. I think I'll be ill soon.

&I've been perspiring continuously on cold nights :/

Did some researching, mom's biological brother actually suffered from "Sudden Cardiac Death", not heart attack, but due to stress/too much workouts/etc. The doctor that announced him dead wasn't able to detect which is the main cause, but I guess it's probably stress.

&I want to visit my biological family. I still remembered that my last visit was 8year old? &Then my real cousin actually wanted to rape me D: Swt, he was 15year old back then. (Okay I know it's kinda weird to mention it up here, but I have nothing else to blog about :X) Not fair uh, like almost everyone has cousins about their age, I have too, but I'm not allowed to visit them :/ While my "adopted" family cousins are already in their adulthood with primary school kids. ):

I think I've fully letted go.

Not yet,

Sweetest meaning are unspoken.

This may be the last time I see you.

Woke up at 9am this morning. Yawn, I'm very sleepy now D: Took 1 whole hour to prepare & met Mx at Marina Square. He had already took the Singapore Flyer uh, not fair not fair :/ N'mind, that's mainly for foreigners also, I'll take it next time [: Settled down at Cafe Cartel; realised he had really changed alot, grew so much taller. (To think that I was 5cm taller than him last time :/) Chatted & etc. Homed next, as he got some other events to attend. &Then he'll be back to Canada on Monday already. Sighs- &P/s} I didn't take any pictures today.

I realised that the no. of visitors to my blog are getting lesser & lesser each day. And I think the cause of it is my posts are getting boring-er everytime, with rants and all. I know nobody likes to read stupid rantings. Yeah I have to do something :/

Someone got me hypnotized.

Can't imagine, my 3rd post for today :D
I'm alright now, happy! Because I can blog again, to cover up that post [:
Was tagged by Shiyun (again) to do a Survey. Yay.
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1. What do you think an ideal friend should be?
- Someone who knows you well enough, &be there when possible.

2. If you've a dream come true, what would it be?
- Everything to be perfect.

3. What mouth would you shut?
- Forcers/Stalkers. D:

4. What would you do with a million dollars?
- Create luxury for family, spend, donate & save the rest (:

5. What would you want your ideal lover to be?
- Someone who can really make me happy.

6. Which is more blessing? Loving someone or being loved by someone?
- None actually. Both loving someone & being love is tiring.

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
- Till the feelings fade away.

8. Is there anything that made you extremely happy?
- Yes :D

9. Define the term, "friend".
- Great, I don't know how to answer this now. Check Wikipedia x]

10. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- Stay as friends, make sure he's happy. What else can I do :/

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
- Becoming my own boss working in the f&b industry.

12. Who is currently the most important person to you?
- I don't know (...)

13. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
- Someone who loves band alot. [: (It's true :D)

14. Would you rather be single and rich, or married but poor?
- Depends who the person is, but I rather be single & rich. [:

15. What would you do when you wake up?
- Check messages.

16. Would you give all for a relationship?
- It really depends you know.

17. If you fall in love with two person simultaneously, who would you pick?
- The one I love more? I think :/

18. What type of people do you hate?
- As I said, hatred doesn't bring happiness. But I despise liars.

19. Now choose 3 people to do this.
- A-n-y-o-n-e.

I hope that Green turtle returns early tomorrow! [:

Put the blame on me.

Please do not leave any comments on this entry.

I was only S-a-y-i-n-g-! Not b-l-a-m-i-n-g-! I already told you I wasn't blaming you in the first place, I typed everything in Caps not because I was angry or what, but because I wanted to make things clear-er to you, as you'll always read wrong things & then predict wrong ideas. I did that everytime. Even if I was shouting, doesn't mean I was scolding right, damn it. But I repeat, I wasn't blaming! Sorry -.-

Can't you people put yourself in my shoe in the first place? You think being pestered and stalked is a good thing? Like I don't want to end it all for laughter, peace & joy. But confronting to someone isn't my character, at least it's not on this type of matter! If you're me, won't you think its embarrassing? I don't have such a thick face alright, so say whatever you people like. Blanche is stubborn and rigid, she doesn't listens to other people's idea. That's why everyone hates her.

I've already tried my best to ignore that person all I can, is it still my fault that he still kept on talking to me? Is it? Fine, now everything's my fault. I prayed up and down for him to spoil my mood, then I'll rant to you all and spoil everyone's mood. &then I'll be happily laughing *ahahah* for hours. Yeah didn't know I'm so evil. For now I shall be good, I swear I will not tell you anyone how I feels or rant about my problems anymore okay? Even if I'm feeling down I will also hide my feelings, at most I'll just ignore everyone that's all. Yes I know you people will think that it's a good idea. Because you people will be free of all my words already.` :D

I thought that today will be perfect.

Oh well, nobody to blame but myself. Till the end.

Tongued tied.

Currently listening to: Byebye - Mariah Carey.

Getting addicted to it. {♥}

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Slept at 2am plus last night, & I woke up at 5.30pm.

It's been a long time since the previous record. Without any disturbance♥

I've got a few weird dreams, super weird ones. Dream and dream, then the next thing I know was waking up laughing like mad -.- It happened before, but this time was different :D I actually remembered the dreams o.o Oh, &mom said I was smiling when I was sleeping last night, too. But I better not blog about what I dreamt, because I guess it won't be funny to others but myself. Lmao, okay I'm laughing again xD P/s} Blanche have a laughing disease since young. (:

& Among the dreams, there're some frightening ones too. Like getting Chicken Pox during N/O'lvls -.-? Okay lahr pretty normal, but then problem is I really hadn't gotten my Chicky Pox yet :/ Then what if I really get it during N/O'lvls (...)? Then I'll have to go to the MOE itself covering myself with thick cloths and all, to sit for an exam. &Then I'll have to bear the itchiness etc. Can't mug properly either. (Eeyer choychoy, *touch wood* Cannot be so suay one!)

I'm feeling very random. :O

Unpredictable illusions.

Got tagged by Shiyun to do this survey. :O

1. At what age do you wish to get married?
- To be honest, I don't wish to get married at all.

2. Study hard or Play hard?
- Both to make it balance.

3. Who is the person you trust most?
- Myself [:

4. Why do you think you have not enough confidence?
- Because I'm not thinking positive enough.

5. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
- Everything to be ridiculously perfect.

6. What is your idea of a friend?
- Someone who will always be there.

7. What is your goal this year?
- Get top 3 in standard.

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
- Not really.

9. If you have all the time and money in the world, what would you do?
- Meaningful/Memorable things.

10. If time were to rewind, what would you change?
- Things&Matters that I've regretted (alot); but it's impossible :/

11. If the person you love is dying, would you stay with him or be happily single?
- Stay with him of course.

12. What feelings you hate the most?
- Mixed.

13. Do you cherish all friendship of yours?
- Yups, but I won't if they don't.

14. Do you believe in love at first sight?
- Nopes, that's too dramatic.

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
- Family and friends.

16. Who do you hope to be always behind you, supporting you?
- I don't know. Don't really like it tho'

17. People who are going to be hated by you?
- Nobody. Hatred doesn't bring happiness afterall.

18. Describe the person who tagged you in 5words.
- She is err, quite friendly? (:

19. How many percent do you think you are infront of your friends?
- Depends on what kind of friends.

20. Do you think long-distance relationship will work out?
- No. It never works (..) :/

Anybody are welcome to do this survey. :D

Toxicated crush.

Two returns, but another two had left.
Just the same thing happened that day, coincidence? Not really.
-Heaven is playing a trick on me /♥}
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Met Hippo @Amk Mrt Station; walked one round at Hub and found it boring. Decided to train down to Woodlands, asked Darren along. She had her lunch at Banquet, I didn't ate as I had already eaten my brunch at home. &There's a woman with her children came to sit beside us. &...

Of course I took it when she wasn't around.


The sister "screamed" when her lil' brother was trying to cope some food.

Hahahs, so cute right! We were secretly laughing our heads off when the lil' boy has 3pecks of rice on his face. But by that time the mother had already returned to her sit, can't take any photos :/ Lol.

Walked round and round, down Cold Storage, up Arcade. Wanted to watch movie but the Queue was ":O" so went to Arcade watch that Darren play his Wangan and we stole his card to play some Candy Machine ._. Won a handful of candies, kindly given 3/4 of it to a little girl there. [:

&Then I wanted to rest somewhere, told Amelia to slack at Macs' She then asked Darren for money; because we wanted to eat something. &Then he gave his money to us like how a father give their children xD So funny!

Slacked at Mos Burger instead, the cashier keyed in wrong order, ah well :/

&Blahs, slacked and slacked and home. (This is what normally happens to us when there's only this few people in an outing D:)
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Something interesting happened last night/this early morning. (Around 12.34am)
Click to enlarge :D

Sighs Johannes, now I know why you went Vietnam alone. :O

There's like so many things that I want you to know.

&it's more than just a crush.

Metamorphosis-

My hair sucks now alright, I told the hairdresser of what type of hairstyle I want. & then he mistaken what I said. Because there's 2types of hairstyle from my explaination. :/ I wanted the more innocent-looking one, now he gave me some ah-lian one. Which is so wrong can. D: That's not the problem why I hate it, I hate it because he trimmed&layered my fringe till !#$%^&*(, now I have to pin up to look better; because it's .. too short for my high forehead. -.-

Gahs, nevermind.

It'll grow longer soon, hopefully.

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Changed blogsong, as many people uses "Take a bow" as their blogsong. ):

&Now I'm totally in love with remixes :D

♥♥♥

I'm missing someone I shouldn't.

Possibilities of Impossibilities.

Like, how can someone woke up dying?

This is a strange month, full of unusual happenings :/

I don't know how to explain.`

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Woke up pretty early this morning. Cabbed down to Chinatown there to visit my rash doctor; he says if I continue consuming any allergic items, he'll put me on his "blacklist" -.- &I'll have to find another doctor. Great. (See, I told you I hate doctors, always will get extra naggings by them.)

Trained to Bugis to Loh Eben Ong's office to make some changes in my name. So happy :D Cause I won't have to stare at some plain names when I receive my IC this August/Sept. (: That lawyer like so awkward facing me can, like he only knows how to communicate with adults. Dang, make me felt so awkward also. :O Shopped around with Dad for his clothes. (I always pick for my daddy :D) &Wells, seperated cause he wants to meet his friend.

Surprisingly, met a long-lost friend on the train. That migrated one, he came back to Singapore for Vacation ._. When he's not around, was thinking whether we'll meet again. Now that he's back, I have no idea why I couldn't speak.
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I'll be off for a haircut now♥

Tears of memory.

Good things, bad things.

So many things happened, too many of them.

All happened at the same time (...)

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15mins ago: I received a phone call from a friend. Informing me that one of my friend had passed away; due to some genetic cancer. Though she's not really close to me since Primary 6, but she used to be my best friend during childhood days :/ I'm not down, because its been ages since I last met her. But still, it's a really really sad news to know.

Evening: Mom told me that her biological brother had left the world this morning, she broke down crying. I hadn't seen her cry for such a long time. She was adopted since she was a baby, she didn't have a chance to communicate with any of her biological family members till she was an adult. She told me they said he was ill for days, woke up asking for maid, and died of no particular reasons at all; the doctor said.

Even downstairs is having funeral.

My heart feels so pain, out of a sudden. &I don't know why.

I'm crying now you know.

She says she's not going to throw me out of house already, she doesn't have the mood to. Now I finally know why she took 2 1/2hours to cook fried rice. This is like the first time in my life everyone's behaving so moody and angry all at the same time. Every single person I know. I know some were like angry with me cause of my attitude & all nowadays. I can't help it can I? Sorry):

I don't feel like doing anything now.

I rather me dead when I wake up tomorrow morning.

Unusual happenings.

Bored, bored, bored. Almost like everyone's away from Singapore today. Nobody to play with me :/ Planned to go out, but mom says no cause she was in a foul mood -.- Swt. Online also got nothing to do uh, played with codings and stuffs like that. Nothing much :O Amelia's fault, last minute tell me going Malaysia, &then that turtle went for his Church Camp leaving me all alone here. &Then Howard and Johannes will only return on Wednesday damn): Still got a handful of talkers left uh, but they like uh never talk one. Dx

Broke my promise too, only studied for 1hour and gave up. Hadn't even complete one Miscellaneous Exercise yet, I've forgotten everything I learnt. Crap.

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See, now I only can type & type to entertain myself.

Grr, enoughenough. :/

I still could see you whenever I close my eyes.

Thanks, for telling me.

So many little things.

p/s} I took 2hours plus to publish the previous entry.
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You know what, I'm very happy.

Happy till I could shed bitter tears of joy (:

Laughs :/

School works:

Benchmark Assignments @Heymath! and LMS -

Additional. Maths' Miscellaneous Exercise 2 & 3.

Additional. Maths' Binomial Theorem & Chapt 11.

Chemistry Revision Chapter 6 & 7.

Still have to go change my name on the 10th, then visit rash doctor soon. &then haircut, then I don't know what's more. Random Outings maybe? &I'm gonna start doing the assignments tomorrow. Not gonna be online if I didn't finish anything. Somemore someone will be leaving Singapore tomorrow :/ You better come back in one vertical piece uhs, don't come back naked also. :X

Right, that's all.

One had just left, while another one returns.

Such a typical day, so special.

I wonder if fate is playing a prank on me, is it?

I'm back but you're gone.

Day 1.
2hours ride from Airport to Pattaya Tiger Zoo; Crocodile/Pigs/Tiger Show.

They're well trained okay. Intelligient animals.


Ps, I was trying to kiss him ;X Fugly.

Waited 1hour plus for the aunties to finish watching some real life gay & normal porn, (I'm permitted to watch but refused, damn sick uh -.-') Alot of perverts.

Then to Land of Fruit watch doggie show & eat fresh fruits.

Then to the Gems Jewellery of Pattaya, godmom bought a pair of earrings. Settled down @Amari Orchid Resort and went to Palladian Restaurant for Dinner. Shopped around at the night market there. -Gotten lost for 3hours, super scary. (Didn't dare to ask anyone) took a very long round walk back to the hotel, nearly kena banged down by a lorry. Just my luck, was freezing cold that night.

Day 2.
Breakfast @resort restaurant, drove to some beach take speedboat to some island.

Didn't dare to play the parachute thingy.

Then bought some honey (costed a bomb), went to some Zoo again.

Elephants are cute :D

Followed by a few performances including wrestling, martial arts, etc.

&Elephant performances.

Of elephants dancing, playing football, bowling, drawing & more! They damn smart uh give them fruits they don't want take money instead. Lol. Next up is Pattaya's Underwater World, Singapore's one better :O (Duh') &then dinnered at some Seafood Restaurant the crab sucks D: Back to resort, swam at the swimming pool and then back to room & slept.

Day 3.
Breakfasted @resort again. Few hours drive to some market for the aunties to buy stuff. &Spent the next 3hours at Dreamworld (theme park) better than Singapore's Escape.

Played loads of games including Skycoaster, hurricane&supersplash etc. Too fun to take any pictures while playing(:

Outside Haunted Mansion.


In the Giant House.

Oh& there have colourful taxis! Dinner Buffet @Twintowers Gold Teak Restaurant, then purple cabbed to Asia Hotel (creepy corridors), nose bleed that night, slept.

Day 4.
Breakfast @hotel; there were these 2angmoh woman and her daughter who both dresses exactly like me and my mom, then both parties kept staring at each other lmao, luckily no staring incident -.-

Took boat at the Boatquay to somewhere.

Then went to some animal skin product shop etc, we didn't dare to buy anything from there :/ Lunched @Ramayana International Restaurant, love the chocolate fondue but dislike the fruits (no strawberries)

Shopped from noon to evening at Platinam fashion mall.


Walked the whole nightmarket the whole night no rest at all.

Instant noodles for dinner as I didn't dare to try the streets food, the aunties did. Cabbed back to hotel to end the day.

Day 5.
Arguments between me & my godmom, turns out its actually her fault. Shopped @MBK saw a very handsome gay, wasted uh D: Went to 29Plaza better than Bugis to me. Back hotel rest till evening then walked a few 1950s look-a-like streets. Heavy gastric again nearly fainted & etc end of day. No photos taken today.

Day 6.

Woke up quite late.

Bused to Chinatown; the people there call it "Yaoweilan"

Made alot of cute new friends. Then the aunties spoke alot of dialects while I just stood down there nod or shake my head. Not a single word out from my mouth :/ Platinam & Mbk again bought loads of stuffs. Backed at hotel the aunties talked about their childhood say how lucky I am etc, grr :/ Fell down twice that day.

Day 6.
Found out that our hotel's located at a place called Ratchathewi when I was exploring the Skytrain map. Saw a indian kid scolding the chef @ a restaurant.

Indian Kid: Nono high high one!! Ughhhh!
Poor Chef: Okok ):
Me: *Trying to hide my laughter*

Tired tired yawn yawn :O

Then my mom very cute kept pleading me to help her take pic of her with a very prettyaye waitress, then she kept offering her cigars, swt. Hours drive to Airport, dined at the cafe, nearly missed the flight back to Singapore lmao. -.-

From this,


to this. Sun setting.

Back in Singapore.

The 2 pathetic aunties was fined $2000 for bringing excessive cigarettes to Singapore. (I warned them already luh :/) Back home, unpacked until hand bleed D:

The end :D